Capernwray At Last!

Well, time for another posting! I'm finally updating...and FINALLY at Capernwray!!! It seemed like the time would never come, but here I am and it's great to be here. I thought I would be a lot more homesick than I actually am right now, but maybe it has just not settled in yet that I'll be here for a while. In a sense it seems like I've been here for a really long time, but then again, I've just started! I love all the people I'm getting to know, and the school is honestly the most beautiful place I have ever been in my whole life. I can already sense that leaving here in March will be extremely hard and I fear the day it comes to that. As I wrote in my prayer journal this morning, I wish I could capture these moments in a bottle and save them for when this time is long gone.

With that said, I think it's time I introduce you to Capernwray!!!!!!! Drum roll please.....

Well keep drumming because the internet is too slow here to handle a picture at the moment...maybe later.

Ok, here's a REALLY annoying part of Capernwray....they shut the internet off at certain times of day!! We barely get anytime online. So of course you know I've been on in when I get my chances. No internet after 10 PM. Grr!!! So annoying, especially when you have a boyfriend who can only use the internet at certain times with a 5 hour time difference and a 6 hour time difference with your parents and the internet is your only form of communication! Not so fun.

Evenings, like right now, are pretty fun at Capernwray. I can enjoy the loud sounds below me of laughter and fun times, even as I sit here on my bed. I feel a bit anti-social at these times. I have not joined in on many of the games. That's not to say I don't have friends, though!! I have met some really awesome people here and we are becoming better friends with each day. I love seeing all of them and I can't wait to see what the school year will bring. I really want to join in the game tonight though, but I have so many other things to do also. I feel so busy here even though we have a lot of free time.

Busy, I suppose. I have 6 lectures a day, scripture verses to memorize, have to be up to chapter 42 in Genesis by Friday (uh oh!), not to mention all the postcards to write, pictures to take, journals entries to write, games to play, conversations to be had, blogs to update! Whew! I'm sure there's more. I try to keep in contact with everyone in the outside world too, but it's hard in this place. If I haven't replied to emails, messages, wall posts, or what have you, right away....sorry! I'm trying as hard as I can!

My biggest struggle right now is leaving behind the world I left behind. I don't think it's homesickness so much as fear of forgetting because I am so easily forgetting it! I am here and it feels almost like I've been here forever and I will be here forever. I love it here! With that said, I love my life I have at home too. I do miss everyone I used to see all the time. I think about that often and I think it's getting in the way of me being really involved in much of anything. It's like I'm trying to keep my grasp on what is quickly slipping out of my hand, but what I'm failing to realize is that there is a ledge beneath me that I can step onto for safety. I can't become absorbed in Bible school (the now) when I keep holding onto the past. Woah! Too many philosophical Bible lectures for me! That was one scholarly analogy (I hope Mike likes that one ;) ). Haha, just kidding.

But yes, I do want to put my full self into this but it often seems hard. I'm not sure why. I must say, though, the lectures by Rob Whittaker (our principal) are wonderful! I love his style! Very straightforward and relevant and they totally make me feel on fire to go out into all the world! It's really great!

So if you all could just pray for me to focus on where I am now instead of looking back on the past and almost bringing the “baggage” of fear with me to Bible school, I would be soo thankful for that! Fear...that is certainly my biggest sin.

There is so much I could write about school!!! It's fantastic! Next post I'll be sure to inform you of the funny things these British say, but for now it's time for some sleep.